bring back to life?

A'kum n ello..

sometimes i hate manga.
especially Saiyuki.

cos saiyuki is the only manga that makes me realize that those ridiculous things are indeed fact.and that manga maybe influenced a bit of my life.

it's like when sanzo said he hates rain.
i dislike rain.
hani said it cos i want to follow sanzo.
maybe i am.
haha.

there was this one time,when it was raining.it depressed me.but i'm a positive thinker,when it rains,i think some people need it.

there something about rain that i really2 hate.it's that negative feeling that i got. i'm sorry for being philosophical, rain is like seeing people cry.

depressing.
really.

and there this part from saiyuki, about bringing back the dead.

if you have a chance to bring back the dead,who will you choose?
and another question,DO YOU REALLY WANT HIM/HER TO BE ALIVE?

this is a big question for me as i already lost someone before.

but even if i have a choice,i won't bring my mother back to life. i have my own reasons. i don't think she even want to be alive anyway. and also,if i bring her back to life,i don't think God will like it. the dead will never be alive. if that person meet his/her death,it has it reason.God already choose that moment.

and another big question,if you have a chance to bring me back to life,WILL YOU DO IT?

i'm a pain in the ass sometimes,i am stingy,i am demanding,i am a brat.
will you bring me back to life?

if you have that chance, don't take that chance.or just take that chance to bring back other people.Optimus Prime,maybe.

i think my life right now is already complete.i have happiness.i have a nice family. i can think nicely.the only think that i don't have is a degree,a work,a husband,son and daughter, and a ticket to Liverpool.

therefore, like a quote from Saiyuki "you have to live your life assuming that time isn't coming for awhile" and so,all i have to do is just do what i must and continue my life like i want.

and btw, before i die,i'll make sure that i don't have any regret or debt. i don't want to meet Melinda Gordon and ask her to help me.

i want to die in peace,just like when i'm alive.

Alhamdulillah.

ta then!

thanks for reading

i have to meet this person first before i die.hoho.