realize why i don't have any feeling for men right now...

A'kum n ello..

i realize about this today.
tho i was kinda know about it since my birthday last month [nathan: LAST MONTH?? why it felt like 10months ago?] .

at that time [she is referring to her 20th birthday btw], there was this waiter, a very enthusiastic waiter. he was a spec-man and was constantly being funny when he talked to us.

then, my sis told me "that waiter is handsome"

i was like "EH??? HANDSOME???"

then, i think again, "yeah. maybe~" and rolled my eyes.

and then, today, before Economics exam [which she thought was kinda disappointing cos she forgot the way to describe things in Business language], she was reading the notes, until her friend, Miezah the perverted said "oh, that guy is cute~!" and so i looked at that boy that she was referring to, and i laughed.

ok. that boy is cute.
ok. that boy is fair.

but i laughed!

which is a problem! cos i should be like "YELA MIEZAH!!! LAKI TU CUTE GILE!!!!!!!" which is the most normal thing to do considering i'm still young and fresh and boyfriend-less and also a girl that loves to look at man's 6 pax.

but nope, when i saw that boy, i LAUGHED and said "haha. aku dah lame tak usha2 camni, so aku pun tataula" which is not a good thing. hahaha.

i wonder what's the reason why i don't think man is not handsome.

maybe bcos of some korean men...........

Siwon: see my CK?

or maybe bcos of some japanese men......

Shun: Alia choose me~

or maybe cos of this certain Mr. Shim.......

Changmin: want me to show what is handsome?

and maybe this certain Italian man that has 2 of the most magical feet in the world......

Aquilani: Hee~~~

yeah, maybe bcos of them.

i have to say i haven't love nor like nor have a crush on a boy since my Form 5. 

and i think i started not to care much about man since the departure of Xabi Alonso to Real Madrid. [God bless Aquilani~]

like all people know, i was once, a Mrs Xabi...........

Xabi: sorry Alia.

and so, since the day that guy become Christiano Ronaldo's lover and not Steven Gerrard's [or even yours], i have to admit i don't really care much about men.

i mean, especially if you have Microbiology guys that took left-over foods, or made some sexual statement in front of the owner of the boobs or even talked about some extreme-porno movie with you, i don't have much choice then.

OH!

maybe i really should blame those Microbiology guys. they make me forget what true men really are.

aih.

ok now.

tata.

[i think the reason she's not into men right now is because of this certain human being......]

Amber: erm, you like me?

[Alia is not a bisexual.or else, she won't dream about me]