Childish.

AsSalam n hello.

Dear people who are around me. Childish is ok until you make it annoying.

Like that time when we want to pay for that masseuse for that massage we got?

We all know that someone would pay it for us but then somebody stopped it and said "i'll pay for mine" and suddenly that person also said "he'll pay for himself too"

Way to go for ruin the mood and not telling us about it.

No need to be so sure that you are making this for our benefit. Nope, you are not. Think first who you're dealing with.

Because who that person is determine thr childish annoying meter that you've just started. Because the other guy is a childish person just like you. More or equally annoying like you.

The other person went mad n started made a scene.

And then you'd be smh n all.

Oh yeah.

You two notice who is looking at these stupid behavior? The youngest person which is Me.

The fuck were you two doing? I had to apologize to the masseuse because of you two. She only needed her payment, not some stupid behaviour. Heck, she had just seen you naked body. But she only needed her payment.

You people make me sick. 😠

New Phone: Lenovo S960 Vibe X

AsSalam.

I'm using a new phone cos my old Samsung Galaxy Note went kapoot. Went for a repair n found out even the motherboard was ruined. If i replace the motherboard, it'd cost about RM600. End up not paying for that and planned to buy a new phone instead.

Went to Mid Valley cos they had this IT Fair thingy. Wanted to look around for some new phone. And the one that excited me was the this new Lenovo. The price was quite good. About RM669 like that. Didn't have the money but i did feel like i want to buy that phone.

Went home, told my dad, showed him some brochure of Lenovo phones, and i thought about which one i want. The Vibe X was within my price range. The Vibe Z is tempting but the price...erm NO. Anyway, 2 days after that, my father gave the money and i bought a new phone with my maid as the negotiator.

I'm liking this phone. 2.2 Ghz processor, 2GB RAM, Camera: (front) 5mpx, (back) 12mpx. Yes, the camera quality influenced my decision a bit. I need a good camera for selfie after all. Haha. Fyi, the camera was supposed to be 13mpx, but after i updated the android to the most recent one, it becomes 12mpx instead.

It has certain themes, and you could choose. You could change the wallpaper to the one you want but it's a bit difficult to set it to your own liking tho. It has some editing features for the camera that you might not need the Camera360 app if you have this phone. And for the selfie camera, it has this beautify picture thing that will make your face look flawless without any acne scars. 

I end up reviewing this product instead. Ah well. Here's a picture of me selfie with my new camera.

supposed to meet Cumberbatch, but met Cantona instead

AsSalam and hello.

so i'll blog the Part 2 of my Cumberbitches' plan to meet Cumberbatch when he was in Malaysia.

spoiler alert: IN THE END WE DIDN'T MEET HIM.

why?
i'll just say that we were not fated to meet each other face to face. some of my mates did see him. Emilia Yunho saw a glimpse of him. my friend, Bahiyah and I? we saw none of his glimpse.

NONE!

i didn't remember much about that night now that THAT night was months ago, so i couldn't really blog what actually happen. sorry tho. maybe i really should start blogging actively nowadays especially now that i already put some adsense ads at my blog. haha.

anyway, we did meet some famous people tho. that Bahiyah, she saw Jamie Foxx when he arrived at the Mandarin Oriental Hotel after the award show. she was like "JAMIE FOXX!! JAMIE FOXX!! HE JUST CAME OUT FROM THAT VAN!!" and we were like "where?where??" and saw none of him.

by the way, we were at the entrance of the Mandarin Oriental Hotel at that time.

so we parked the car and went to the cafe and ordered one pink guava juice that cost RM24 and also 6 glasses of warm water that were free. actually, we ordered 3, but they gave us 6 cos the waitress knew why we were there i.e STALKING.

anyway, we waited for Mr. Cumberbatch to enter the hotel. we still saw nothing.

famous people started to appear.

and then i saw 3 Manchester United fans sat beside our table. waiting for some Scums legends such as Eric Cantona and .....oh, Bobby Charlton.

anyway, we waited.

and then Tiqah, my new Cumberbitch friend, saw at twitter that Benedict Cumberbatch was outside the hotel, signing some autographs for the fans outside. LIKE, WHAT THE HELL. we were waiting for him in the hotel with a RM24 guava juice, and he was signing autographs for fans that spent nothing for him????

sometimes, life is a bit cruel. but we have to embrace it.

anyway, we still hoped he enter the hotel. but then we found out that the VIPs went to some post-award party at a nearby club. so Mr Cumberbatch went party without us.

ok.

with hope in our heart. that line from You'll Never Walk Alone was in my mind. so we waited for him. it was almost 11pm at that time.

and then i saw David Coulthard. for your information, he was a former Formula One racer. btw, those who know me since i was 11 knows how much i love F1 at that time. i had a book that had this statistic and data about the winners and all. my favourite F1 racer will forever be Mika Hakkinen. Michael Schumacher is good, but i don't like him enough as a favourite. and so do David Coulthard. but still, i did like him long ago because i was a fan of McLaren, and he was a McLaren driver when i was a fan of F1.

anyway, i saw him and his wife. i don't want to talk about his wife, cos i don't know her but she was a bit sexy, and i didn't really like her dress that night. Coulthard tho, looks ..good, i guess. not all F1 racers look like Kimi Raikkonen after all. you can't blame him. anyway, i didn't take any picture with him. i only looked and tried to not look excited. haha. i mean, that was David Coulthard after all. that former McLaren F1 racer. anyway, he didn't go to the party. he went straight to his room after he stopped by at the cafe.

and then, the Scums fans stood up and went somewhere. i didn't really realize that until Emi's friend, i forgot what his name, asked me"you don't want to take a picture with Cantona?" and i was like "why should i?" and when i think about it, i should take a picture with him. i could show-off to my brothers if i took a picture with him.

so Emi, her male friend(a Scum supporter) and I went to the lobby and saw the guy that did the flying kick to a supporter, Eric Cantona. he was busy signing autograph for the Scums fans. while we went near him, the guards told us that we couldn't take a picture with him. Emi was like "only few minutes lah" and Cantona suddenly walked away. we chased after him and he stopped to sign more autographs. while he was busy signing those autographs, Emi went to him, pulled a tiny bit of his suit that he end up looking at her, and she asked"will you take a picture with us?" and his reply"OK."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

and he went back signing the autographs, and after he finished, he looked around for us, and we went to him and took a picture together.

from left: Emilia, Cantona, Me.

 

 

after we took a picture with him, i just realized that our cameraman was Emi's friend, the Scum supporter. hahahahahahahhahaha. i asked him why he wasn't in the picture n he could just asked someone to snap for us, but he just said "at least i could meet him".

nice.

nway, i sent the picture to my family's WhatsApp group. and my brothers were like "where did you meet him?"

i am brilliant, after all.

anyway, we went back to the cafe. still waiting for Mr Cumberbatch to appear.

one hour gone, still no him.

i did see some Malay guys who looked rich. found out they were Siti Nurhaliza's stepsons. must be nice to be rich. ate at that cafe and ordered expensive food like its cheap.

and i saw Fabio Capello. again. feel like taking a picture with him tho, but some guys took a picture with him first, and he went to eat his supper immediately afterwards. no chance for me. then i saw Bobby Charlton. some Scums fans wanted to take a picture with him but his wife stopped them "NO PICTURE PLEASE"

ceh.

and so we waited again. it was almost 12am.

and then, some girls said"he already entered but he immediately went to the lift!!" and Emi said"i saw him too. he just went to the lift immediately". they said he was drunk after the party. some girls stopped him n wanted to take a picture while he was drunk, but he refused them politely.

and so, it ends. no chance of meeting him. i was not fated to meet him. maybe one day.

and i end up meeting another Scums guy which i found out later to be some famous painter of Manchester United. a very old guy who was really really friendly to us. and he thought all of us are Manchester United fans. how cute. Tiqah is a Spurs fan, while I support Liverpool FC.

ha ha.

anyway, he was nice. he wrote his website url that has some Cantona's pictures, on his dentist name card and gave it to us. he still thought we were Scums supporters tho. his wife even asked"your brothers have a poster of Cantona on their walls?"

erm... i forgot what i answered.

anyway, we gave up. we paid for our drink and went outside of the cafe. the security immediately came and said"we received complains and you have to leave now". if only i can shove my RM24 bill of pink guava juice up his ass, that'd make my day.

so, that's all.

bye bye.

maybe one day we'll meet each other, Mr Cumberbatch.

good night. thanks for reading.

Cumberbitches' plan to meet Cumberbatch

Salam.

I have the mood to blog, or in other words, to talk about something interesting.

Two weeks ago, i was in my fangirl mode. Not my usual kpop fangirl mode. It was my British fangirl mode. Not related to LFC, but the guy still a British guy. As some or maybe few of you might have known, this year's Laureus Award was held in KL because Rio had to cancel the event bcos of some reason that i forgot what it was.

What is Laureus Award? An award for sportsman. Actors have Oscars, athletes have Laureus. As a football n sports fan, i was excited about this event. I even wish to attend it. Only a wish, so i did not do anything about that wish.

Until, my dear friend Emilia Miyuu Miyuu told me at LINE:

My dear Sherlock was chosen as the host for that award!!

As Benedict Cumberbatch was chosen as the host, i became more excited. Yeah yeah, they said Beckhams would appear. Rafael Nadal also might appear. But Benedict Cumberbatch as the host? That's a dream come true for me.

So, Emi and I planned about what to do. And apparently, our friend, Bai, also a fan of his. So she wanted to join our stalking activity.

Me, Emilia and Bai. stalking trio.

We planned and planned. When will he arrived? Which hotel? Which flight? We planned and speculated.

We made a Whatsapp group called Cumberbitches, just to discuss our 'activity'. We used our stalking experience as a kpop fan and speculated which hotel he'd stay. One of the sponsor for the event was Majestic Hotel. So we thought he might have stayed there.

So.....
We went there.

FYI, the hotel is a 5 star hotel, situated in the middle of KL, with a majestically beautiful interior. We planned to sit at the cafe there and waited for our Ben Ben. The waitress gave us an Acer tablet as the menu. We looked at the list of drinks they have. Some didn't even show the price. There was one drink that cost about RM28. I think it was an orange juice....

I think la.

In the end, we asked for the waitress and asked her whether they serve any coffee. She said yes and we asked what kind. She said "cappucino, latte" n so on. Without thinking, i said cappucino n the others chose latte instead.

So we waited for our Ben Ben.

We waited and waited.

Where the hell is he? We thought.

We got our coffee. And some cookies. Mind you, the place oozes with class. We couldn't even talk loudly. We were like classy ladies. We drank the coffee like we were Kate Middleton. We had to pretend like we're born high class. We drank the coffees like royalties even though Emi said the latte tasted like the ones at McCafe. The cookies were tasty but it was like the kuih raya cookies we had during Eid Fitr.

The cappucino that i ordered.

And then, Bai showed us a picture of our Ben Ben with some fans at some hotel... in Malaysia. We were like"when is this?? Where??" then a friend of Bai (through facebook) said that he actually stayed at Mandarin Oriental Hotel, not at Majestic Hotel.
So we looked at our coffee. We looked around. Then Bai asked "Mandarin Oriental, jom?" and we replied "JOM!!"
we asked for the bill. The waitress gave us the bill.

...

RM20, not include tax, for each of our coffee. The price of pretending to be rich and also the price of being a Cumberbitch.

So we went to Mandarin Oriental. Oh. It was 11.30pm at that time. Almost midnight. And once we arrived, i went to the toilet. I told the girls to wait at the cafe. They said "don't mind don't mind. We'll wait for you in the toilet" oh how kind they were.

I took about 5 minutes to finish my 'business'. Then we sat at a sofa at the lobby. Saw some Man Utd fans. I thought"are they waiting for Beckham? They did say he'd come. But he's in Miami tho". And then, some guy that might be a security guy was walking in front of us. He looked at us suspiciously. So we ended up go to the cafe there instead.

A nice looking waitress served us. Cos my mouth feel weird bcos of the cappucino that i drank at Majestic, i asked for a warm water. The other girls were looking at the menu and was like "air milo RM18! Lagi mahal dari tin milo tu!". Anyway, we asked for an orange juice. Price: RM24. Only a glass. Tho we speculated how much is the warm water.

So we waited. And waited. And waited. And when it's almost 1am.
We gave up.

It was harder than stalking kpop artist and also pricier.

So we paid the bill. The warm water is Free! Haha. While we were walking out, Emi was looking at some chocolates they displayed there. The chocolates look so tasty and expensive. 1 chocolate=RM5.50.

The waitress that served us before came to us. She introduced us which is good and which one is too common. And she showed us this one tasty looking chocolate cake that ONE SLICE of it cost around RM30.

ONE slice only. And here i thought Secret Recipe has the priciest cake of all.

Then the waitress asked about us. We asked about her. And then we revealed to her that we came to see Benedict Cumberbatch. She was suprised. But she also revealed to us that many people was waiting at the hotel since morning. Maybe to meet him. And then she revealed to us that some Hollywood celebrities came to Malaysia for a holiday and stayed at that hotel before. And she also revealed that all the stuff in the hotel are imported.

The tables, chairs, the paintings, even the juice that we drank are imported.
Oh oh. Even the warm water!! Hahahahah. Lucky thing it's free.

And then, she made a sudden confession. She said that few minutes before we entered the cafe, Benedict Cumberbatch had just finished his dinner. Easily said, he was there when we were in the toilet. In the fucking toilet. While i was pooping.

Damn.

We missed him because of my poo!
And then we went home and planned to meet him at the red carpet, before the award show, on the next day. Which, we failed because we were late.

Still, we tried to meet him after the award show at the hotel.
Which i'll blog about it at the next post.
Goodnight. ♥

Treat people better at wedding

Salam.
It is 3.04am and i am resisting myself from falling asleep.
To be honest, i had a very mindful weekend. There were plenty of stuff on my mind. Maybe i am in my period which end up making me very very sensitive in every small matters that happened around me.
Like that wedding i went to few days ago.
I rather not say who, but it was a wedding of someone that i knew when i was 11. A man, who acted like a girl and nicknamed Sizuka, got married to his childhood crush, his Nobita (a girl). I went to his wedding, feeling so excited to meet him and my old schoolmates. But when i went to that wedding, i could not even say the word "congratulations" to him and i could not even take a picture with him or even a nice 'hey, long time no see'.
Oh. You might wonder if he is a handsome guy or something. But no, he is not. But he is a nice guy. But i think him and his wife need to learn how to treat guests better.
They did not even smile at us. Not even a single hello. I was like an uninvited guest. To be honest,  i feel hurt.
There was i, excited to see him and naggy personality in his wedding dress. He finally married his childhood dream. But he end up making me feel like a hopeless friend.
Yeah, we never contacted each other. Yeah, we were not the nicest girls when we were in school. We were among the crazy bunch, unlike the other girls who were among the sweetest shy bunch. But to be treated like stranger at a wedding that someone actually invited you (with a card) is painful.
I thought i was the only one who felt hurt with that treatment. Apparently some others also feel the same.
You might have the most Islamic wedding of all time, but if you do not treat others with the way Islam teaches you, i think you have to stop for a bit and look yourself in the mirror and realize that you have to be more humble.
Maybe this is why i hate going to weddings. Maybe.
Still, i am actually looking forward to the next wedding that i will attend to after this. So hopefully this one might give a better treatment than the previous ones.
Ok now. Have a good future ahead of you and me. AMIN!

Ps: Never forget your solat!!

Pre-Master thought

Salam.

Today is Friday. Today is Thaipusam (have a happy one for those who celebrate) and also a public holiday.

It's not like public holiday is significant to me, nway. I've been staying at home for the last few months n to know that today is a public holiday is actually a miracle.

So, here i am. Doing nothing at home n watching Life is Pi. Even the movie does not inspire me to do anything good. I feel bored. I was planning to go out but i checked my purse and i only have a miser rm11. Tsk3. What can you do with rm11? Nothing!

And Najib said we should not complain about anything and give kangkung a bad name. Tsk2.

I should start reading journals now. I should,  shouldn't i? March is around the corner and i still am clueless. Do all pre-Master+PhD students are like this?

Ah well. I am nervous abt continuing my study But i take it as challenge. Truthfully, i am so excited, i cannot wait to start. I had enough holiday and to face another tiring journey actually makes me realize that i can be useful to others too and that makes me excited. I also realize that is a sign of workaholic. But who cares. This is a very good opportunity for me. Compare to others, i am a very very lucky person. I thank Allah S.W.T for that. Thank you thank you.

I do not know what to blog. For something memorable, look at this picture.

P/s: do not spread the picture to other places without permission

New Mobile Phone

Salam.

My father gave me his old phone, Samsung Galaxy Note. 1. I.  ONE.

Yeah, the phone is old. The market already have the Note 3. I think. And i have just started using it ancient version.

Cannot really complain. My old phone had a tiny screen. Now, the new one has very big screen and my eyes maybe will end up like Ozil.

Yes, i used that joke again. My sis said that joke is not a joke. Hey, big eyes and Ozil are relatable and funny, ok?

Nway, i like this phone. Major flaw is that the previous owner did not take care of it nicely (yes, father. I am referring to you). He wrecked the charge hole. So i have to charge the phone externally.

Ah well. At least i still can use it.

And i can finally finish up Candy Crush. Yup, still playing. That game is like a challenge. You win it, you are powerful. You lose it, you are a loser. Haha. So i end up continue playing it.

And oh. Finally have the chance to try Camera360.

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The eff.
I cannot upload the picture through my phone!!

Anyway, as the date shows: HAPPY NEW YEAR 2014!!! InsyaAllah this year will be better than last year or awesomely good. 2013 was hectic and messy but the end products were brilliant. Have a nice year ahead. :)

[edit] eh, i can upload the picture lah! Me and Alena  ♥

Sunderland 1 - 3 Liverpool

Salam.

few hours ago, LFC won 3-1 against Sunderland.

YEAY!!!!!!!!!!

i woke up on Match Day (Sunday) with a really, really good feeling. even though i was a bit sad that i have no more Hanzawa Naoki to watch, i had this very very nice feeling that made me feel so content with everything.

it felt like 'i don't have to worry about anything' kind of feeling.

Sturridge and Suarez made a good partnership between them. both scored the goals. Sturridge provided 2 assists to Suarez who scored two goals. the teamwork is a bit better than last week. Gerrard made a brilliant long-range pass which ultimately lead to the 2nd goal. Mignolet made fine saves even though he did let the opponent's goal in.

but overall, it was a good team performance. we counter-attacked properly. defended well after conceded early in the second half and always looked for the third goal. it was really nerve wrecking before the third goal came. 

still, WE WON!!!

thanks, you two! hopefully, your partnership will bloom like the sakuras on autumn season. 

oh. Sunderland played very very well. good luck for your next game! Han Hye Jin's husband was the  MOTM for them. but nobody care about the losers anyway. ah well.

 YNWA!

Hanzawa Naoki. double payback, please.

Salam.

a couple of weeks ago, i saw a tweet by Tokyograph that mentioned something like "Hanzawa Naoki rating: 35.9%".

fyi, Tokyograph is something like a source that provide my Japanese entertainment news. so, when i saw that tweet, i was like "oh. a Japanese drama with that kind of rating. must be that long historical Japanese drama".

still, i googled it. i am having a pretty long holiday right now. some 50 episodes drama won't be a problem for me.

i was wrong. it wasn't a historical drama. it was a modern drama. to make things interesting, it was a drama about a banker's life. the synopsis wasn't really interesting. something like a banker was wrongly accused for passing a 500million yen loan to an almost bankrupt company.

i was a science student. economic or financial stuff is not my interest. i don't like banks. they hate my ATM cards. so i wasn't really interested in watching that drama.

however, as i said before, i have a pretty long holiday. the drama only had 10 episodes. i didn't think it'd give me any harm tho.

so i downloaded the drama.

i watched the 1st episode.

then the 2nd one.....

then the 3rd one..........

then i realized that it was actually an ONGOING drama.

i immediately checked dramawiki. they only have one episode left.
i checked the subs at d-addicts. they already subbed the 9th episode.

and then i realized. i don't think i can wait for the next episode if i watch the 9th episode. so, i thought, maybe i should just watched until the 5th episode and wait patiently for episode 10.

i ended up watching the drama until the 6th episode. then i stop.

i checked dramawiki again. i looked at the broadcast day: "Sunday". i was like "my goodness. i have to wait next week!!"

then i realized, "today (the day when i started watching) is Sunday".

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so i checked the d-addicts that always release the drama torrent. apparently, the 9th episode was shown on the previous week. so, imagine my feeling when i found out that the 10th episode was already released in Japan (on that day). i was like "I WILL WAIT UNTIL THE SUB COMES OUT!!"

so i waited.

i waited for 5 days. the subs for the episode 10, the finale, finally released.

so i watched episode 7 that i had left off few days ago, until episode 10.........

the feeling.
i do not know how to explain it perfectly.
 
THE DRAMA IS SO SO SO GOOOOOOOOD!!!! BRILLIANT! JUST BRILLIANT!
from the start till finish, the drama is just brilliant. never fail to make me disappointed. just brilliant! so so so good.

i have to say,  this is the best drama i ever watched. the last time that i had this kind of feeling was when i watched Deep Rooted Tree. but Hanzawa Naoki is more fast-paced but with a better ending.

that ending was so dramatic, it just makes me want to wait for season 2 even though there is no announcement about it. it was just so so so good. they have to make a season 2. they have to!!!

too many positives about this drama. i like that they show the lifestyle of a banker, which i only know as the person who always took RM20 whenever i had to replace my card even though it was never my fault. but this drama makes me respect bankers more, therefore, i forgive you, CIMB.

and i also like Sakai Masato and Aya Ueto as a married couple. them being a couple that oozes plenty of sweetness show that marriage is not really about trusting each other, but it is also about understand each other's life and accept the fact that 'my partner's life is also my life'.

anyway, please watch this drama, people!

if you don't like it, it just mean that you are so lazy to understand financial terms.

here is some good stuff by Hanzawa Naoki:

THANKS FOR THE THRILLING RIDE, HANZAWA!

season 2 please.

Happy Birthday, Ayah.

Salam.

today is my father's birthday.

fyi, my father is the one who i love the most in this whole wide world. beside the facts that he is so kind in sponsoring most of my LFC activities i.e paid for the Singapore LFC trip, the Malaysia vs LFC match and that Dalglish shirt, he had provided me enormous amount of precious stuff that i really really want.

tho some of them were really short-lived. like that iMac who looked like this:

i got it after i got 5As in my UPSR. he asked me what i wanted after that achievement, so i said"an iMac". he bought it few weeks after that, which was unexpected cos i thought it was really2 expensive. but my father was not stingy (unlike now) therefore he gave me this. however, this iMac only had about 140mb RAM (YES, 140mb) and a Mac OS 1.4. i think. i didn't remember much. but i know it was not Mac OS X. to make things short, after about 6 years of using it, my father suddenly said that he wanted to ask his friend to update this Mac (something like change the OS to a Windows instead). so he took it and maybe gave it to his friend for free or for money, and i still haven't see that iMac ever since. and i still love my father for that even though i can't forgive him for taking away the only expensive gift i ever had in my life from him and also the reminder for the highest achievement i ever had in my life.

still, i love you, Ayah.

back to the main story. this iMac was one of the gifts that my father gave that were short-lived. there was also an iPod Nano, a gift that he gave me after i got 7As in my PMR. he was disappointed cos it wasn't straight As, but he still gave me one. nway, this iPod only last 2 years. i forgot to take it out from my pants and it was kept inside a working washing machine for 1 hour. RIP iPod Nano. my father said he won't buy me any iPod after this. still, thanks for giving me an iPod, Ayah. i WAS one of the earliest who used that kind of iPod. it was the first version after all.

still, i love you, Ayah.

as a father, he is better than most fathers in the world. some fathers do not celebrate birthdays, but my father celebrate mine. some fathers sent the mothers to attend their children's report card day but my father loved to attend mine with my late mother. some fathers gave money to their child to buy a Harry Potter book, my father put it under my pillow like a tooth fairy.

i may seem materialistic as i mostly said that he gave me stuff. fyi, i am materialistic. you gave me something useful that i really2 want, i'll love you until you die. so, i am really happy with whatever my father gave me. seriously tho, some of the stuff that he gave me, most of the people i know had to save their own money for it. so i'm luckier that most of them. thus, i should be happy.

as of today, he is now 56. most people his age are already retired but not my father. i think he's a workaholic. i do not know what he'll do when he doesn't have any work to do. play golf all the time, maybe.

still, he is old. he may do not seem like it if you compare it to a Korean father. but he is old. when i look at him walk, i know he is old. when i look at him sleep in front of the computer when he isn't even doing an assignment, i know he is old. when he bought a sports car, i know he is old.

he is just an old man. an old man that have not had much rest. an old man that lives alone even when he has a young wife, 4  jobless (no fixed salary) children and 2 baby daughters. he is having the most difficult life a person could ever want to, just like a young man who has a big future in front of him.

for that, Ayah. you are 56. old but still young.

i hope you have a wonderful life ahead of you.

HAPPY 56th BIRTHDAY!

"when will you get married?"

Salam and Hello.

i am a bit sad. LFC lose a match just now. first time for this season. they deserved it. played like bunch of clueless people.

still, top of the league for few hours unless Arsenal and Spurs lose, and Man City and Scum drew on their match, the league table will remain the same.

ah well.

so.... what's up, me?

nothing really. i'm doing nothing. finally finish my degree. my graduation will be on November. and i haven't apply for work cos my father wants me to further my study i.e do my Master. and i still have not apply for my Master.

why?
because i am very very clueless in what must i do right now. and also because i am lazy. i want a stress-free month. but with the environment in my house right now, i don't think i can be stress-free even for 10 minute.

basically, i'm staying at home all the time. doing nothing except wondering what i should do.

oh. Atman, a mate of mine, is getting married today. oh. he already married. and the mates in my WhatsApp group right now are excitedly saying "his first night!!". i find it really really weird that they are talking about it.

and because he is now married, the topic about "when will you get married?" appear. i was the one who started it cos i know nobody would. i asked my mates that question. they didn't give any shocking answers. i didn't really give mine tho. cos i do not want them to judge.

"when will you get married?"

my answer: i seriously do not know. truthfully, i don't think i will get married. why? firstly, because i don't want to. but then, i thought i have to. besides the fact that my father will be so proud of me that i finally married, it is also because i hope i can have someone that will actually care for me when i am old.

i trust people easily. if i am at a library and have the need to go to the toilet, i will asked someone to take care of my laptop. i trust that person to take care of it.

but when it comes to marriage, i'll have trust issues.

maybe because of my father. it is not easy to have a father that married three times in his life and also cheated on his 2nd wife for a younger woman that lied to her family about the status of the man she was seeing.

therefore, i don't trust men who say they won't get married again. i don't trust men who said they will be loyal forever. i just don't trust those promises.

you look at an old man and you think "he seems nice and sweet. he treats his wife and children well". and once he is dead, all secrets out. and funnily, the family won't know about that secret but the strangers know about it.

i remember that time when i tweeted 'i want to be the 2nd wife of a rich man so that the rich man can stay with his 1st wife but still take care of me financially, spiritually and physically'. when i tweeted that, a twitter friend of mine replied "i want to go to your wedding just to see what man will marry you"

ah well.

i'm still a naive lady. yes, i watch porn sometimes but most of them are because the girls there have really nice body and i want to know how they have that kind of body. i still look down when i see a man walking. i never look at a man's eyes for more than 3 seconds.

life is hard.

bye bye. :)

Won Bin has a girlfriend. i is sad.

Salam and hello.

haven't blog in awhile now. haha.

my degree is ending in few weeks. if my result went well with no F, i will say bye bye to my Degree.

how cute. i will actually have a degree. hihi.

to think that i had been ignoring my blog after being so nice and cozy with this blog cos i've been so bloody busy, now InsyaAllah i will have plenty of time.

you know, i've been so busy that i did not know plenty of things and i don't even care most of it. tho i just found out that my dear handsome Won Bin already has a girlfriend.

the fuck.

he really has a girlfriend????
yes, dear pitiful heart of mine. Won Bin really has a girlfriend. and it is not Nur Alia Othman.

Won Bin: tembak hati, Alia. pyoong pyooong!

seriously tho. i was so sad!! i don't like that Lee Na Young!! tsk2. i hate her character in that Fugitive B drama and not just cos that drama is horrible.

actually, i hate her cos she's dating my Won Bin.
ceit.

yes, i'm so bitter right now.

this is way worse when i found out that Xabi Alonso is marrying his old looking wife, which now become the classic and glamorous Nagore.  this is so so sad.

i wasn't that sad when that Jo Insung announced he has a girlfriend. cos i don't really care. he never been in a macho movie like Ajusshi before.
or maybe he did. i don't know. i'm not really a fan. i just know he was in that gay movie with that Song Ji Hyo.


but haih.

Won Bin.

why not me?

ps: at least i update my blog. i'll update more after my exam. my final paper will be on this Saturday and i'm gonna eat Sup Tulang and BBQ somethings after that. hihi.

Kang Dong Won. you can marry to me, ok?

 

Kang Dong Won: ok Alia! nah kopi!

think too much

A'kum n ello.

hi.

sorry, this is not the post that some might expect. just some stuff that i have to take out from my mind cos apparently, I THINK TOO MUCH.

it is not a nice feeling. this think too much feeling. as much as i love it for being mature to have this kind of thinking, i also dread it. the fact is, this think too much feel is like a psychological problem for me. and i dread it. so much!

the worrying thing is, i think too much even for the slightest thing. especially when i was praying. i do not know about you, but when i pray, i sometimes care too much about my pronunciation. granted, this improve my concentration for my solat, however, the scary part is, i lose so much confidence in my solat. it almost makes me feel unhappy about my solat.

and when this happen, i almost have this depress feeling. the fact that my iman is not that enough. to even make me feel this very difficult feeling. it almost affect me, religiously.

i have to blog about this. because by blogging this, i finally accept this and i know that i have to overcome this. and also to accept the fact that this is actually a disease.

other than the fact that i worried so much about my pronunciation, i worried about other stuff that might make my solat not acceptable. i took this as a benefit for this anxiety though. all the anxiety that i had, i googled them. most of the things that i were not sure of was finally answered. as i said, i think too much, even the slightest thing. and i just realized that i am so few of knowledge about my solat.

i did not even know that when you forget the rakaat that you was in, apart from taking the small number of rakaat and add more rakaat to fill up the rakaat that you forget, you also need to do the sujud sahwi.

did you know that? cos i didn't.

there were plenty of stuff, but that one was the one that most memorable to me.

anyway, even when this is a problem, i am grateful for realizing this problem. because in the end, what matter most is, the future that you have with God. small problems, whether they can be solve or not, the end of the day will not end with another human, but with God instead.

brace your present.

Amin.

a mature New Year post

Salam n hello.

11.10pm. 1st January 2013.

2013.
already.

hohohahahihihuhu.

tell you the truth, i actually thought 2013 already past days ago. i asked my brother last Sunday,"what day is today? tomorrow is New Year?" and then he replied"nope. this Tuesday is New Year. Today is 30th".

the reason i asked him that question was because i was hoping 31st December haven't gone yet cos i was thinking on buying that 31% discount of Baskin Robbins ice-cream.

New Year? 2013?
i actually want to ignore the reality that it is happening.

why?
the thing is 2013 will be the start of every important events that my life will face. will i have a successful final year project? will i finish my study? will i finish the study with good grades? will i have a job? which one i will choose, a job or study for my master?

if 2012 was the time i started to become selfish, this 2013 will have a more selfish me. and i can assure you, i will be more annoying, more direct, more temper.

new year resolution?
i'm scared to even plan it. the fact that those plans will disappoint me just make me scared more than ever.

2012 was a good year.
i owned myself a pet-cat. a kitten which i named as Putih. cos it was white when i first saw her. and when she started growing, she has a light milo-colored spots on her fur, with some black spots at her nose and her ear. currently, she's not in her cage, and wandering at this time of night. here's hoping she is not lost cos she always in her cage at this time of night. the whole house is anxious with her absent. dear Putih, come home please. PLEASE!

other than that cat, i cooked my first Nasi Goreng! and i learned it from the internet.
funny thing about this is that when i told my friends about my achievement, i could see which one are my close and understanding friends just by seeing their reactions.

when i tweeted and instagram the picture of my nasi goreng, the true friends of mine supported me and said "it seems delicious" and "delicious looking" and then i told some friends of mine, they start to laugh at me when i told them i checked the internet about how to cook them.

there i know, which one know be better, and which one not.

understanding is the best part of being in a friendship. my life is pretty easy and difficult at the same time. if you know me, you know how lazy i can be, how clumsy i can be, how ridiculous i can be, how nice i can be, how angry i can be. and when i start to do something different than my usual habit, the one who knows me will be surprised and laud me. i'm a person who rarely change myself. i'm not a person who listen to people's advice easily.

i bold the advice, cos when it comes to advice, i really really will ignore it. i listen to opinion well, instructions also well. but when it comes to advice, i listen to my own advice. whether wrong or right, i decide that.

the start of 2013 now appear in a serious note. i actually feel like i will start to blog more after this. i need to express myself better. i feel like i become too negative after i stop blogging.

and also cos i want to get money from nuffnang. i noticed that after the last fake-Changmin post, my nuffnang earning start to increase. not sure how, but that's a good thing. the money that my father gave me just not enough. my my.

so now. HAPPY NEW YEAR!

ps: so i told my father that i want to go to Korea and i want him to pay for it, and he said that i have to start save some money just like Rosmah. if Rosmah can, i also can. meh.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

the FAKE Shim Changmin

A'kum n ello.

[WARNING: KPOP POST. FANGIRLING POST. EXCITED POST. MALU POST]

sorry that i haven't blog for... months? weeks? whatever. not your problem.

i'm sorry i still haven't blog abt what you really want, AsyaPrasanComel. but like some wise men said,"patience is the key" dan "sabar itu separuh daripada iman" dan "blog dia, suka hati diala". hohohohoho.

nway, the reason i blogged today is because i met HIM....

if you don't know him, i want you to touch the left side of your chest and say to yourself "i am not a KPOP fan. i am immature. i am stupid. forgive me for being so shallow in this fandom".

Immaturity.

A'kum n ello.

i know i should have blog after someone at the cbox told me to blog. n yes, i am blogging now.

but i am not blogging abt what you want, for now. i'll blog about that later. maybe in few days. haha. sorry AsyaPrasanComel~!

anyway, what i actually want to blog right now is just some personal stuff. you either want to read this or ignore this and leave, you decide.

i have this really really painful feeling inside of me right now. whether it is because my period almost here or that the people around are just so horrible that i am just being emotional.

i am just.... so so so tired.

i am tired of being.... everything.
i am just so so tired.

i am so tired for talking bad stuff about you.
i am so tired for faking my smile when i see you.
i am so tired listening to your 'oh if you dont want me, i can leave' brag.
i am so tired of your 'why me?' sigh.

i am so tired of seeing the immaturity that you people have. i am just so so so bloody tired.

cant you be nice to people? cant you think about other people beside youself? can you shut up when nobody wants your opinion?

can you stop your stupid brags? can you stop your 'you cant live without me' brags? can you start reply nicely and not become like her? can you just shut up?

can you stop talking? can you stop being so annoying? can you use nice words? can you work hard? can you just be a grown up and stop being so childish? can you shut up?

seriously, CAN YOU PEOPLE SHUT UP?

i thought i was the one who talk too much. i thought i was the one who like to talk unnecessary stuff.

but for one day only, for one freaking day, i talked less and let my ears do the listening.

all i heard was dirty stuff. i heard annoyance. i heard.... bad stuff. and i know you waited for my mouth to do the bad stuff too.

and for one moment, when i actually talk, annoyance in the air. and i thought i was the one who being emotional!

and by the way, i am still waiting.
and i will not do what you asked.
and i will not let you change my way of life.

i admit, i am a very difficult person to deal with. but that is when you are with me, you think only about you. only you. not others. and you blame me.

yes, sometimes i look like i am selfish. i do things my way. others who know will ask why. others who pretend will just lose temper.

let just say, i am looking at my future for a farther life. but anxiety towards the most important person in the world stop me.

pretend you understand. pretend you know. pretend you just say WTF.

good night.

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reminder to Ms. Nur Alia

A'kum & hello.

i haven't blog for a while.

yeah rite. A WHILE.

i have many things that i need to blog about. plenty of stuff. but the thing is,i ALMOST forgot what happened on those moments that i really wanna blog.

like that Malaysia vs Liverpool match. i still haven't blog about the match itself. i remember the score was 6-3 to my beloved Liverpool,but i couldn't remember who score the goals. i know N'gog (now ex-LFC player) scored 2 goals and that Charlie Adam (who now not really playing as well as i thought) scored a penalty after a dodgy stumble by Andy Carroll (who now can even pass a better ball than Adam), but i really couldn't remember what actually happened.

oh! i do remember that AsyaPrasanComel n SarahTidoPelik tweeted me that i was on tv.

n No. i didn't watch the replay of the match. thus, i never see ME on tv with a Kuyt placard courtesy of my dear cousin who was with me, IzzaSukaKuyt.

oh. other stuff that i still have to blog about is my meeting with Scent of a Woman stars, Kim Sun-A and Lee Dong Wook. the possibility that i'll blog about this will be really high because the fanmeeting was so dramatic; pre-fanmeet and during-fanmeet, all bcos of my BEL class, my broken tooth and those brilliant food by Mandarin Oriental Hotel.

i feel like a famous blogger, tho my blog followers are only 40 people and not hundreds or thousands like some people, but oh well. i have to continue blogging. it's the only thing that i will read when i have Alzheimer later.

i wonder if i have Alzheimer, will i remember that i still have a blog? if i don't, some of you people who knows me in real life have to remind me about this.

but i wonder if you people will also have Alzheimer if i also have it?

"curious,very curious" imagine Ollivanders the wandmaker in Harry Potter say this to you.

oh btw, i'm using my Android. a new phone, tho not as canggih as Galaxy Notes or iPad,but i'm in love with it. THANK YOU, AYAH!!!

and oh. i won't blog about my 22nd's Birthday. or maybe i will.

will i? time will tell.

oh well. bye now. thanks for reading. this post was intended to remind me to blog. thanks for reading it.

with wax,

AliaBaik XD

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i met Amber

A'kum n ello.

after years of being active in all KPOP stuff, i stop being active #blameBiomole.

since 2007, i went to ALMOST all the big KPOP shows in Malaysia.

DBSK's O.Jung.Bang.Hap concert (when they were still FIVE!), FT Island's 1st concert (which end up cancelled~~), Super Junior's Super Show I & II, i went to almost all of them.

still, concerts are increasing, but the savings are decreasing. the money that i save for the future are in RED level after i spent most of it with KPOP stuff.

what's in my mind.

A'kum n ello.

what am i thinking right now?

• food.
• foood.
• fooood.
• good layout for the blog.
• some classic stuff.
• loving the pics at Akmal's blog.
• loving whatever Mimi is blogging.
• NadiaSepet changed her url again -_-"
• money.
• money.
• money.
• lab reports.
• tweets.
• chef riz.
• crap.
• random.
• Kana Nishino's voice.
• Jin Akanishi's TEST DRIVE. that song is weird but very very catchy.
• TRAX's blind. Victoria so beautiful in the teaser.
• thinking about M.OA. that M-Net thingy. to go or not to go.
• thinking about that sweet skirts at Times Square. will own in few days.
• lab reports.
• CTU presentations. damn you, Baizura. you made me conscious!
• that stupid private blog that i paid because the bittorrent is too slow but mediafire is not, and he didn't update that blog for 5 days without notice.
• Kana Nishino's just the way you are.
• NEWS' cherish.
• my mandarin test.
• Son Ho Young's voice.
• that goat.

the handsome goat that was slaughtered on Eid Adha.

(taken before it was slaughtered)

• a grandma that always nag nag nag. lucky she wasn't mine,biologically.
• my dad's SEIKO watch. a very very weird watch. expensive. a bit useless.
• my pale face when i was on the plane to Kelantan.

that's all. tata.

note: i'll blog about Liverpool FC if i have the time.

Unlucky Thursday

A'kum n ello.

i'm back from Kota Bharu, Kelantan.

i'll blog about it later.(???)

what i want to blog about is my recent Unlucky Thursday.

remember that i blogged in the previous post that i said i'll have Mandarin Listening& Oral test?

let just say, that the listening test was postponed to another day and the Oral test was a disaster.

by disaster, it means, "it was a wrecked"