Sunderland 1 - 3 Liverpool

Salam.

few hours ago, LFC won 3-1 against Sunderland.

YEAY!!!!!!!!!!

i woke up on Match Day (Sunday) with a really, really good feeling. even though i was a bit sad that i have no more Hanzawa Naoki to watch, i had this very very nice feeling that made me feel so content with everything.

it felt like 'i don't have to worry about anything' kind of feeling.

Sturridge and Suarez made a good partnership between them. both scored the goals. Sturridge provided 2 assists to Suarez who scored two goals. the teamwork is a bit better than last week. Gerrard made a brilliant long-range pass which ultimately lead to the 2nd goal. Mignolet made fine saves even though he did let the opponent's goal in.

but overall, it was a good team performance. we counter-attacked properly. defended well after conceded early in the second half and always looked for the third goal. it was really nerve wrecking before the third goal came. 

still, WE WON!!!

thanks, you two! hopefully, your partnership will bloom like the sakuras on autumn season. 

oh. Sunderland played very very well. good luck for your next game! Han Hye Jin's husband was the  MOTM for them. but nobody care about the losers anyway. ah well.

 YNWA!

Hanzawa Naoki. double payback, please.

Salam.

a couple of weeks ago, i saw a tweet by Tokyograph that mentioned something like "Hanzawa Naoki rating: 35.9%".

fyi, Tokyograph is something like a source that provide my Japanese entertainment news. so, when i saw that tweet, i was like "oh. a Japanese drama with that kind of rating. must be that long historical Japanese drama".

still, i googled it. i am having a pretty long holiday right now. some 50 episodes drama won't be a problem for me.

i was wrong. it wasn't a historical drama. it was a modern drama. to make things interesting, it was a drama about a banker's life. the synopsis wasn't really interesting. something like a banker was wrongly accused for passing a 500million yen loan to an almost bankrupt company.

i was a science student. economic or financial stuff is not my interest. i don't like banks. they hate my ATM cards. so i wasn't really interested in watching that drama.

however, as i said before, i have a pretty long holiday. the drama only had 10 episodes. i didn't think it'd give me any harm tho.

so i downloaded the drama.

i watched the 1st episode.

then the 2nd one.....

then the 3rd one..........

then i realized that it was actually an ONGOING drama.

i immediately checked dramawiki. they only have one episode left.
i checked the subs at d-addicts. they already subbed the 9th episode.

and then i realized. i don't think i can wait for the next episode if i watch the 9th episode. so, i thought, maybe i should just watched until the 5th episode and wait patiently for episode 10.

i ended up watching the drama until the 6th episode. then i stop.

i checked dramawiki again. i looked at the broadcast day: "Sunday". i was like "my goodness. i have to wait next week!!"

then i realized, "today (the day when i started watching) is Sunday".

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so i checked the d-addicts that always release the drama torrent. apparently, the 9th episode was shown on the previous week. so, imagine my feeling when i found out that the 10th episode was already released in Japan (on that day). i was like "I WILL WAIT UNTIL THE SUB COMES OUT!!"

so i waited.

i waited for 5 days. the subs for the episode 10, the finale, finally released.

so i watched episode 7 that i had left off few days ago, until episode 10.........

the feeling.
i do not know how to explain it perfectly.
 
THE DRAMA IS SO SO SO GOOOOOOOOD!!!! BRILLIANT! JUST BRILLIANT!
from the start till finish, the drama is just brilliant. never fail to make me disappointed. just brilliant! so so so good.

i have to say,  this is the best drama i ever watched. the last time that i had this kind of feeling was when i watched Deep Rooted Tree. but Hanzawa Naoki is more fast-paced but with a better ending.

that ending was so dramatic, it just makes me want to wait for season 2 even though there is no announcement about it. it was just so so so good. they have to make a season 2. they have to!!!

too many positives about this drama. i like that they show the lifestyle of a banker, which i only know as the person who always took RM20 whenever i had to replace my card even though it was never my fault. but this drama makes me respect bankers more, therefore, i forgive you, CIMB.

and i also like Sakai Masato and Aya Ueto as a married couple. them being a couple that oozes plenty of sweetness show that marriage is not really about trusting each other, but it is also about understand each other's life and accept the fact that 'my partner's life is also my life'.

anyway, please watch this drama, people!

if you don't like it, it just mean that you are so lazy to understand financial terms.

here is some good stuff by Hanzawa Naoki:

THANKS FOR THE THRILLING RIDE, HANZAWA!

season 2 please.

Happy Birthday, Ayah.

Salam.

today is my father's birthday.

fyi, my father is the one who i love the most in this whole wide world. beside the facts that he is so kind in sponsoring most of my LFC activities i.e paid for the Singapore LFC trip, the Malaysia vs LFC match and that Dalglish shirt, he had provided me enormous amount of precious stuff that i really really want.

tho some of them were really short-lived. like that iMac who looked like this:

i got it after i got 5As in my UPSR. he asked me what i wanted after that achievement, so i said"an iMac". he bought it few weeks after that, which was unexpected cos i thought it was really2 expensive. but my father was not stingy (unlike now) therefore he gave me this. however, this iMac only had about 140mb RAM (YES, 140mb) and a Mac OS 1.4. i think. i didn't remember much. but i know it was not Mac OS X. to make things short, after about 6 years of using it, my father suddenly said that he wanted to ask his friend to update this Mac (something like change the OS to a Windows instead). so he took it and maybe gave it to his friend for free or for money, and i still haven't see that iMac ever since. and i still love my father for that even though i can't forgive him for taking away the only expensive gift i ever had in my life from him and also the reminder for the highest achievement i ever had in my life.

still, i love you, Ayah.

back to the main story. this iMac was one of the gifts that my father gave that were short-lived. there was also an iPod Nano, a gift that he gave me after i got 7As in my PMR. he was disappointed cos it wasn't straight As, but he still gave me one. nway, this iPod only last 2 years. i forgot to take it out from my pants and it was kept inside a working washing machine for 1 hour. RIP iPod Nano. my father said he won't buy me any iPod after this. still, thanks for giving me an iPod, Ayah. i WAS one of the earliest who used that kind of iPod. it was the first version after all.

still, i love you, Ayah.

as a father, he is better than most fathers in the world. some fathers do not celebrate birthdays, but my father celebrate mine. some fathers sent the mothers to attend their children's report card day but my father loved to attend mine with my late mother. some fathers gave money to their child to buy a Harry Potter book, my father put it under my pillow like a tooth fairy.

i may seem materialistic as i mostly said that he gave me stuff. fyi, i am materialistic. you gave me something useful that i really2 want, i'll love you until you die. so, i am really happy with whatever my father gave me. seriously tho, some of the stuff that he gave me, most of the people i know had to save their own money for it. so i'm luckier that most of them. thus, i should be happy.

as of today, he is now 56. most people his age are already retired but not my father. i think he's a workaholic. i do not know what he'll do when he doesn't have any work to do. play golf all the time, maybe.

still, he is old. he may do not seem like it if you compare it to a Korean father. but he is old. when i look at him walk, i know he is old. when i look at him sleep in front of the computer when he isn't even doing an assignment, i know he is old. when he bought a sports car, i know he is old.

he is just an old man. an old man that have not had much rest. an old man that lives alone even when he has a young wife, 4  jobless (no fixed salary) children and 2 baby daughters. he is having the most difficult life a person could ever want to, just like a young man who has a big future in front of him.

for that, Ayah. you are 56. old but still young.

i hope you have a wonderful life ahead of you.

HAPPY 56th BIRTHDAY!

"when will you get married?"

Salam and Hello.

i am a bit sad. LFC lose a match just now. first time for this season. they deserved it. played like bunch of clueless people.

still, top of the league for few hours unless Arsenal and Spurs lose, and Man City and Scum drew on their match, the league table will remain the same.

ah well.

so.... what's up, me?

nothing really. i'm doing nothing. finally finish my degree. my graduation will be on November. and i haven't apply for work cos my father wants me to further my study i.e do my Master. and i still have not apply for my Master.

why?
because i am very very clueless in what must i do right now. and also because i am lazy. i want a stress-free month. but with the environment in my house right now, i don't think i can be stress-free even for 10 minute.

basically, i'm staying at home all the time. doing nothing except wondering what i should do.

oh. Atman, a mate of mine, is getting married today. oh. he already married. and the mates in my WhatsApp group right now are excitedly saying "his first night!!". i find it really really weird that they are talking about it.

and because he is now married, the topic about "when will you get married?" appear. i was the one who started it cos i know nobody would. i asked my mates that question. they didn't give any shocking answers. i didn't really give mine tho. cos i do not want them to judge.

"when will you get married?"

my answer: i seriously do not know. truthfully, i don't think i will get married. why? firstly, because i don't want to. but then, i thought i have to. besides the fact that my father will be so proud of me that i finally married, it is also because i hope i can have someone that will actually care for me when i am old.

i trust people easily. if i am at a library and have the need to go to the toilet, i will asked someone to take care of my laptop. i trust that person to take care of it.

but when it comes to marriage, i'll have trust issues.

maybe because of my father. it is not easy to have a father that married three times in his life and also cheated on his 2nd wife for a younger woman that lied to her family about the status of the man she was seeing.

therefore, i don't trust men who say they won't get married again. i don't trust men who said they will be loyal forever. i just don't trust those promises.

you look at an old man and you think "he seems nice and sweet. he treats his wife and children well". and once he is dead, all secrets out. and funnily, the family won't know about that secret but the strangers know about it.

i remember that time when i tweeted 'i want to be the 2nd wife of a rich man so that the rich man can stay with his 1st wife but still take care of me financially, spiritually and physically'. when i tweeted that, a twitter friend of mine replied "i want to go to your wedding just to see what man will marry you"

ah well.

i'm still a naive lady. yes, i watch porn sometimes but most of them are because the girls there have really nice body and i want to know how they have that kind of body. i still look down when i see a man walking. i never look at a man's eyes for more than 3 seconds.

life is hard.

bye bye. :)

Won Bin has a girlfriend. i is sad.

Salam and hello.

haven't blog in awhile now. haha.

my degree is ending in few weeks. if my result went well with no F, i will say bye bye to my Degree.

how cute. i will actually have a degree. hihi.

to think that i had been ignoring my blog after being so nice and cozy with this blog cos i've been so bloody busy, now InsyaAllah i will have plenty of time.

you know, i've been so busy that i did not know plenty of things and i don't even care most of it. tho i just found out that my dear handsome Won Bin already has a girlfriend.

the fuck.

he really has a girlfriend????
yes, dear pitiful heart of mine. Won Bin really has a girlfriend. and it is not Nur Alia Othman.

Won Bin: tembak hati, Alia. pyoong pyooong!

seriously tho. i was so sad!! i don't like that Lee Na Young!! tsk2. i hate her character in that Fugitive B drama and not just cos that drama is horrible.

actually, i hate her cos she's dating my Won Bin.
ceit.

yes, i'm so bitter right now.

this is way worse when i found out that Xabi Alonso is marrying his old looking wife, which now become the classic and glamorous Nagore.  this is so so sad.

i wasn't that sad when that Jo Insung announced he has a girlfriend. cos i don't really care. he never been in a macho movie like Ajusshi before.
or maybe he did. i don't know. i'm not really a fan. i just know he was in that gay movie with that Song Ji Hyo.


but haih.

Won Bin.

why not me?

ps: at least i update my blog. i'll update more after my exam. my final paper will be on this Saturday and i'm gonna eat Sup Tulang and BBQ somethings after that. hihi.

Kang Dong Won. you can marry to me, ok?

 

Kang Dong Won: ok Alia! nah kopi!

think too much

A'kum n ello.

hi.

sorry, this is not the post that some might expect. just some stuff that i have to take out from my mind cos apparently, I THINK TOO MUCH.

it is not a nice feeling. this think too much feeling. as much as i love it for being mature to have this kind of thinking, i also dread it. the fact is, this think too much feel is like a psychological problem for me. and i dread it. so much!

the worrying thing is, i think too much even for the slightest thing. especially when i was praying. i do not know about you, but when i pray, i sometimes care too much about my pronunciation. granted, this improve my concentration for my solat, however, the scary part is, i lose so much confidence in my solat. it almost makes me feel unhappy about my solat.

and when this happen, i almost have this depress feeling. the fact that my iman is not that enough. to even make me feel this very difficult feeling. it almost affect me, religiously.

i have to blog about this. because by blogging this, i finally accept this and i know that i have to overcome this. and also to accept the fact that this is actually a disease.

other than the fact that i worried so much about my pronunciation, i worried about other stuff that might make my solat not acceptable. i took this as a benefit for this anxiety though. all the anxiety that i had, i googled them. most of the things that i were not sure of was finally answered. as i said, i think too much, even the slightest thing. and i just realized that i am so few of knowledge about my solat.

i did not even know that when you forget the rakaat that you was in, apart from taking the small number of rakaat and add more rakaat to fill up the rakaat that you forget, you also need to do the sujud sahwi.

did you know that? cos i didn't.

there were plenty of stuff, but that one was the one that most memorable to me.

anyway, even when this is a problem, i am grateful for realizing this problem. because in the end, what matter most is, the future that you have with God. small problems, whether they can be solve or not, the end of the day will not end with another human, but with God instead.

brace your present.

Amin.

a mature New Year post

Salam n hello.

11.10pm. 1st January 2013.

2013.
already.

hohohahahihihuhu.

tell you the truth, i actually thought 2013 already past days ago. i asked my brother last Sunday,"what day is today? tomorrow is New Year?" and then he replied"nope. this Tuesday is New Year. Today is 30th".

the reason i asked him that question was because i was hoping 31st December haven't gone yet cos i was thinking on buying that 31% discount of Baskin Robbins ice-cream.

New Year? 2013?
i actually want to ignore the reality that it is happening.

why?
the thing is 2013 will be the start of every important events that my life will face. will i have a successful final year project? will i finish my study? will i finish the study with good grades? will i have a job? which one i will choose, a job or study for my master?

if 2012 was the time i started to become selfish, this 2013 will have a more selfish me. and i can assure you, i will be more annoying, more direct, more temper.

new year resolution?
i'm scared to even plan it. the fact that those plans will disappoint me just make me scared more than ever.

2012 was a good year.
i owned myself a pet-cat. a kitten which i named as Putih. cos it was white when i first saw her. and when she started growing, she has a light milo-colored spots on her fur, with some black spots at her nose and her ear. currently, she's not in her cage, and wandering at this time of night. here's hoping she is not lost cos she always in her cage at this time of night. the whole house is anxious with her absent. dear Putih, come home please. PLEASE!

other than that cat, i cooked my first Nasi Goreng! and i learned it from the internet.
funny thing about this is that when i told my friends about my achievement, i could see which one are my close and understanding friends just by seeing their reactions.

when i tweeted and instagram the picture of my nasi goreng, the true friends of mine supported me and said "it seems delicious" and "delicious looking" and then i told some friends of mine, they start to laugh at me when i told them i checked the internet about how to cook them.

there i know, which one know be better, and which one not.

understanding is the best part of being in a friendship. my life is pretty easy and difficult at the same time. if you know me, you know how lazy i can be, how clumsy i can be, how ridiculous i can be, how nice i can be, how angry i can be. and when i start to do something different than my usual habit, the one who knows me will be surprised and laud me. i'm a person who rarely change myself. i'm not a person who listen to people's advice easily.

i bold the advice, cos when it comes to advice, i really really will ignore it. i listen to opinion well, instructions also well. but when it comes to advice, i listen to my own advice. whether wrong or right, i decide that.

the start of 2013 now appear in a serious note. i actually feel like i will start to blog more after this. i need to express myself better. i feel like i become too negative after i stop blogging.

and also cos i want to get money from nuffnang. i noticed that after the last fake-Changmin post, my nuffnang earning start to increase. not sure how, but that's a good thing. the money that my father gave me just not enough. my my.

so now. HAPPY NEW YEAR!

ps: so i told my father that i want to go to Korea and i want him to pay for it, and he said that i have to start save some money just like Rosmah. if Rosmah can, i also can. meh.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!