nature won't misunderstand a thing...

a'kum..ello...very sleepy n dizzy right now..huhu...i feel guilty to ainun..never saw her burst like that...the burst was not really a big burst...but still..that was ainun...never seen her mad....maybe the teasing of her and shazizan was over the limit....sorry ainun....anyway..i dunno about hani..i know she also feel guilty to her...but she also was furious to her..maybe not furious..i dunno...better wait until she tell me....maybe both of them will be mad at me...cos...i told shazizan about their prob...k...SORRY..!!...at that time...shazizan saw hani suddenly mad....and then he was shocked and asked me why...at that time...i thought i wanted shazizan to say sorry to them..but then i think again that it was not his fault..then i told him what happen..i said it was bcos of him that he is a likeable person (not the truth but u know why i said it)...and bcos of those teasing they fight against each other (i dunno if it was a fight or just some ...)...anyway...that shazizan..i asked him,why the hell he just smile n do nothing..and he said---..kk..i forgot what he said...but i remember it was stupid....then...we said nothing..until i realize(..)...and i said to him"pehal aku citer kat ko nih...!"....and then he laughed...haha...stupid....really though..to see hani n ainun not talking to each other was like some meteor hit the paddy field...(kk...just an example cos my mind is in a sleepy state right now)....haha...emi told me something about sarjie...that sarjie thought i was prasan to think he like me...kk...i admit that i felt like some...but everybody will feel something like that if you being something like that...care about that person~~....pergh~...he really ought to know what a person is like until u want to be a know-it-all...haish....kk...that's all....tata!

sometimes..life just want to you to do something....

a'kum..ello...12.34pm but i haven't mandi yet.... haha....n later mak cik will take me n sis to pyramid...want to watch pirates of da carribean2...but the movie will be shown 2.30pm n 2.45pm....n later will be 5.50pm...but maybe we can buy the tickets if our luck with us...hee.....last night..watch that liverpool match that i waited so much....but the video for that match dissappointed me....haish....the camera was like a cheap camera that u can buy at pasar malam...bellamy n garcia scored...but liverpool lose 3-2..bcos hobbs made the mistakes....hrm...he's young..so...i can forgive him bcos of that...but rafa think of fitness rather than win at that time...n garcia has a neck injury n aurelio has a calf injury..so..he put reina the goalkeeper to play the midfield...huhu..kinda funny....at school..many funny things happen....hani n ainun fighting over shazizan...hahhaahha!!!....not really fighting...just some teasing each other who love who...i asked shazizan who he like...but he said "kena ke aku bitau ko"...i said if u want...then he said he don't want...i asked if that girl is in our class...he said not....but i think that girl is in our class...i bet it will be ainun...haha...or maybe hani....haha..!!!....or the girl from other class..i think maybe that syakirah gedik...haha...saw them walked out to school together....but shazizan said he don't like her...and he don't even mind i said that syakirah is gedik..anyway..hope he happy anyway....my friendship with sarjie is kinda nothing...i can say that we don't care each other anymore...that's good anyway...i dun want ppl to butt in what i'm doing right now...i admit i am very secretive right now...even my bestfriends dunno what in my mind...hehe....a record for me for not telling any secret to anybody..huhu....talked with ilham last friday....she talked about her former school...kinda stupid cos i think that school think more about sex than study....very2 stupid if u asked me...n that's why ilham said she love smks9 better...she luv the teacher but she don't like pn normah pretty much...can't blame her...that teacher can be very kerek...i dunno when will my temper to my sis will end...i've been to patient to her in this years of my sisterhood...but she is so damn annoying + irritating...i even have this vision to drown my sister under my pillow...duh..i think i better take ainun's layout and not this midnight silhoutte layout....haish...i think i have prob with my life....my father also think something like that...i won't be very surprise if one day i go to some psychiatrist for treatment of my temper.....i just dunno what this life meant to me anymore anyway....read some mangas...the latest was paradise kiss...the manga was great...but kinda sad about the ending...but that main character...when she bcome the model...i think that the most beautiful manga woman i ever seen...huhu...without make-up..she look different...but u know...just like raven said"the magic of make up~~"....haha.....damn it....my life right now is a total lie...that laugh with emi n liyana n farahin was a cover-up for every problem that i have in my life..the worst part...i dunno what my prob is....i woke up every morning...looking at the mirror...saw myself...thinking what i'm doing after this....dreaming all the impossible.....sometimes...u just want all ur dreams to be in front of you.....and make you happy...and no worries....but whatever,alia liverpool...this life is in front of you..and you just have to face it like nothing happen...cos dream on....this is ur life!

when ppl misunderstand......

chat with sarjie just now...maybe my attitude is not really suitable with his behaviour or his ego...and anyway....i don't want to care about his ego....why must i care about his ego if he don't want to say that he also has his fault....k...this what we have been chat about....


aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:05:29 PM): a'kum..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:05:33 PM): ello sarjie..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:05:37 PM): wanna tel u sumthing..
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:05:46 PM): waalaikumsalam
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:05:49 PM): yea what is it
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:06:05 PM): jgn marah bile org ckp pasal nih..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:06:07 PM): but still..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:06:11 PM): some advice anyway..
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:06:21 PM): ok.............
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:06:27 PM): kenape lak nie...
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:06:50 PM): nothing really..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:07:21 PM): somebody feel a lil bit unhappy or should i say mad..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:07:22 PM): with u..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:07:27 PM): anyway..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:07:39 PM): better tell u than never..
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:07:45 PM): who...
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:07:48 PM): u...
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:07:51 PM): haha..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:07:57 PM): not just me..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:08:00 PM): somebody also..
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:08:11 PM): WHY????????????????????????????????????????????????/
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:08:39 PM): what did i do wrong this time
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:08:49 PM): u can be a lil bit overreacting sometimes..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:09:05 PM): but i want to tell u if u want to be a VERY good friend...
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:09:16 PM): u have to understand ur friend 1st of all..
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:09:30 PM): are u talking about the aina thing??
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:09:53 PM): not just that..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:09:57 PM): other thing also..
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:10:04 PM): what other thing
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:10:05 PM): and about me..
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:10:09 PM): what??
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:10:15 PM): i thank u for being too caring and all..
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:10:23 PM): but...
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:10:30 PM): but i dun really like ppl being want to care about me..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:10:40 PM): cos i'm not that kind of person..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:10:43 PM): but u know ppl..
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:11:06 PM): so if i being caring is making u annoyed la...
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:11:11 PM): ok..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:11:12 PM): being mad cos ppl being like know it all..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:11:16 PM): yup..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:11:22 PM): dun be too caring anyway..
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:11:37 PM): what do u mean by being mad.
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:11:53 PM): ok like this la....
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:11:57 PM): bengang...
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:12:02 PM): that's wut i mean..
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:12:19 PM): no i dont know what r u saying
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:13:29 PM): ....
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:13:30 PM): kk..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:13:35 PM): something like this..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:13:59 PM): dun care about me unless i tell u about my prob..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:14:24 PM): dun be too over reacting to ppl
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:14:33 PM): i mean..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:14:34 PM): troo over..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:14:38 PM): *too
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:14:54 PM): about concerning u is it??
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:15:18 PM): ??
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:15:23 PM): not just that..
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:15:30 PM): then what..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:15:32 PM): other things also..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:15:37 PM): to other ppl too..
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:15:38 PM): like what.....
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:15:41 PM): who..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:15:44 PM): dun want to tell..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:15:47 PM): kk..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:15:49 PM): thats all..
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:15:51 PM): ok like this la...
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:15:53 PM): wanna say just that..
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:16:06 PM): from nowonwards i vow to god...........
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:16:14 PM): never to care about u again....
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:16:30 PM): coz all i thought is i was being a good friend
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:16:40 PM): and i care about my friends
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:17:03 PM): if that makes u annoyed..fine
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:17:08 PM): i wont do it anymore
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:17:12 PM): ...
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:17:13 PM): da..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:17:17 PM): k..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:17:22 PM): i told u about me...
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:17:32 PM): my life is a lil bit like hell..
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:17:37 PM): hey i just dont want to hear it anymore...
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:17:41 PM): i dun want ppl to be involve..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:17:44 PM): thats all..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:17:59 PM): i know wut i'm doing..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:18:02 PM): but anyway..
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:18:06 PM): and u can tell the ppl who is angry at me is to confront me
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:18:11 PM): thats for being caring....
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:18:14 PM): face 2 face
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:18:16 PM): ...
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:18:17 PM): kk..
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:18:30 PM): and not like telling me behind my back
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:18:35 PM): i meant no harm
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:19:02 PM): if my doing is making ppl angry then i dont knw what to say anymore
SarJie (7/27/2006 7:19:33 PM): just ask them to confront me....
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:19:38 PM): haha..
aLia_LiverPooL (7/27/2006 7:19:41 PM): k..

then we're off....i don't care about ego or something...but i care about truth...i just told him to change a little bit...but nope...he just think that i am a pathetic person....and he even think that i don't want to friend with him..haish...i know he is a good friend and all..but for hani,liyana,ah hin,mel,emi n ainun n oher ppl that know me...they knoe what i really am....if i have any prob...don't bother until i tell....but this person...i know his new...but he just don't want to say 'ok..i'll change'...haish...and also...he is too emo for a man....hrm...dun mind though...i just hope this is not the last of our friendship.....huhu.....kk.....want to hack ainun's blog....haha..!!!!

when the past is a worst past..

a'kum..ello...this blog totally something..it knows my secret!!!...haha..!!..kk..very tired right now...just now...something totally like shit happen....maliha made me mad...never i thought she will be this loser...k..today..we had a bola baling match...it was quarter final....and we lose 4-0....bad..very bad...the worse of it...i was totally frustrated at maliha....i was dissappointed + mad...she made our team lose morale cos of her stupid behaviour...we believe on her that she will ignore her whatever reason cos everything that we ask if she were okay or not were all nothing....(she said that anyway)....and she played well...but she didn't score...k..many ppl blame her....but i dont want to blame her bcos of that...even liverpool missed many times..then...when we nearly lose...she lose her confidence...i told her we still believe on her and so on...but she remain alone...but then..something she said made me mad..100% mad...!...she said.."alia,jgn pass kat kite!..pass kat emi..!"..k..she lose her confidence and give up...i was-....mad...she was being too pathetic....shit~...then later..when we officially lose....she went nowhere(honestly,i forgot that she brought sirap for us)...and then later...aina told me...maliha was different when she supported the ste...haha...shit again...i was furious...i dunno what the hell this team had done to her that made her like that....i just~....damn it..!..but dun mind...lucky the liverpool news made me happy....xabi going nowhere!!..hehe..he said he will stay in liverpool..!!..huhu..!!...i was happy....totally happy..!!...and he also looks totally handsome + cute...da...i can say nothing about that..eventhought he wore that yellow shirt...that new liverpool away shirt...he still looks totally hot!!!...haha...i was sleepy at school..but then..i saw his picture on the newspaper..then...i slept on it...haha..!....n just before..i saw him with that liverpool red shirt...he was totally HOTT..!!!...maybe if i saw him in front of me..i'll have nosebleed....haha!!!!!...kk...being too mental and too gatal right now...so..tata..!!...

when u just can't stop blushing n smiling n crying~

a'kum..ello...haven't blog for a while...just remember to blog cos emi just told me that she's gonna blog..haha..found this layout...very2 cute..later want to change it...haha..!!....anyway....this week is a test's week...for the july's test...i'm not really a bit happy about it...cos the timing was bad...my maid ran away from my evil stepmum( have to be grateful to her cos she done the cooking after she ran away)...it was too stressful anyway...my stepmum just can't relax herself...she let all her frustration to me mainly...and bcos i don't want this thing to be worst than now...so...i just do nothing and don't to want to do any prob...~~...a good girl am i...haha...my life right now is nearly a disaster...i haven't done my homework...but i dun mind though...my family support me...my friends enjoy me...so...i can say nothing about those negative things...so...lalalala....anyway..last week...i cried for~i dunno...some minutes when recess in school....huhu....cried at farahin...i told farahin don't tell hani...but hani found out after that cos my eyes have tears...a bestfren she is...huhu...i told liyana that i cried at school..i told her cos ah hin bullied me...haha...but later i told her...too many pressure though..never thought this 16 can be a heavyweight....neway...eventhough too many pressure...i just can't stop laughing to many things...that emi n liyana...stupid~~....all of their stupid jokes...and i know the new side of emi....she is a mental woman when she's frust...i dunno what the hell happen to her the 1st time i know that side of her...i thought she was being annoying..but later she became stupid n funny..hahah.!!...but nice thing what she did was talking about chemistry cos later the chemistry test have some of the questions that she asked me..huhu...nowadays..i always surf that liverpool web....not that i havent surf it everyday..but this time..i surf it almost every minute...cos i want to know who will be the new signings in liverpool..huhu....the liverpool web showed some pic of the players when training..and i found this cute player...huhu...but i dunno who he is...found out that he is paul anderson(kk,his name is sort of for tua guy...but dun mind)...very different than before..hehe..but xabi~oh~xabi...i won't betray u,my darling..huhu...kk...out now..ta!

sometimes...

a'kum..ello..kinda in a moody+bad mood today....makcik azah said my maid don't want to work...off she go to her cousin's house....but i hope she won't quit with us though....she's a nice maid...my siblings never mad at her or something like that....but that mak cik azah..she treat ppl like some slave...that's her alright...s-l-a-v-e....wth....mak cik azah always thought she's the best in everything....she is worse as a stepmum,worse as a boss, but also totally good as a terrible stepmum...huhu...i know her relatives hate us cos we treat her like she must not....but that's her fault anyway...i try to be patient to her..eventhough i said bad things about her in this blog..do i say it in front of her...nope,i'm a good hypocrite girl...i won't show my bad-side to her...haha~~... shit....read tiron's blog....kind of slow...cos she talk about her ex..and not just that...she talk about how good he was and also how proud she was being his ex....it's not that i hate it...it's just the blog was too long....and all she talk about was her ex..da...dun mind..it's her blog anyway....just started tuition with this teacher+liverpool fan,moothi his name....kind of nice that teacher...talk really fast and lucky i can cope with it....i dunno how he knows all the gossips about other students...i don't even know half of them..but this tuition with him really can make you up-to-date about averything that happen around my everyday teenage lives...after the physic tuition with him,(it was at shakira's house and emi n hani also there,i'm the new girl)....went to hani's house and bcos mak cik azah work till 9pm..so...hani's sis sent me home...but before that we went to alam sentral and pasar malam...funny thing happen at alam sentral....hani's van hit the divider(maybe that's what it's called,i dunno)....and i felt like i was in a roller coaster or something when that van hit it...huhu...kewl~~...but ppl watch us though...maybe it was loud.....then..we went to pasar mlm...cos i said i want satay...then...her sis bought it for me...mission 1:eat satay-completed!.....huhu....today have another tuition....add math...that same teacher....but no hani....haish..~~...kind of bored right now....i miss LIVERPOOL!!!...i want the epl to start right now....!!!....i want to see mark gonzales!!!.....also want to see xabi..!!!!......hee....!!....da..!!...want to watch the next eyeshield21 anime...hiruma n mamori are very sweet together!!!...huhu..maybe if i'm loaded and emi want to buy the cd later+later....maybe i bought it for myself then...huhu...some stupid things happen in school....fatin n hani made this fan club,Mr.C fan club...haha!!!...i dunno how these ppl can thought of this....that so called mr.c (c stand for cute) know nothing about this...that's what i thought though....huhu....chat with sarjie right now...that new guy from my class...i had some debate with him about who's the best-liverpool or arsenal....he's a gunners....and i'm a kop.....we had that debate last thursday i think....becos he spoke in english...i also spoke in english...after that..i was kinda"wow,my english~~~"...da....haha....kk...wuteve...bye now...ta!